Saturday, August 7, 2010

Woman, a history

A woman climbs the steep escarpment, picks her steps with practiced care
a chill wind blows across the water, blows tangled hair into her eyes
she feels the winter coming on the wind.
It's been two years and still she comes, though she hardly hopes to see him now
two ships set sail two years ago
but still she takes the long way home that looks out across the sea.
At night she holds the child close and tries to conjure up his face
trace the jawline in her mind, downset eyes and temple scar
how is it she'd forget a face?
They're out of food
there's no more food.
Outside the night advances fast across the empty sea the cold North Sea.

And in a world across the ocean, women bending, planting seed
women in a field of mud, pausing, smiling, trading whispers, midday sun bears down upon them.

Woman in a covered wagon, sweat soaks through her milk-stained blouse
passing hills like sleeping children, passing but not seeing them.
Eighteen days since Fort McPherson, another month before the pass
two sisters back in Philadelphia writing letters with no address.
Six days since they laid him down and wrapped him in a child-sized quilt
no rites, no clergy, not a witness, just an unmarked grave off the Northern Platte.

Woman under weight of stone sinking down through gray blue water
reaches up towards the Mother, save me mother
All is dark.

Tell us Man, what can we give you? Tell us how to ease your pain.
Can we offer you redemption, lips, our youth, a softer fall?
Would you go to war for our protection, lay your lives down for our gain
guard our virtue with your caution, extract our pleasure with your knife?
Do you trust us with your truth, you've lain your hearts down at our feet.
We can feel your pain within us
here reach inside and take a piece of beating pulsing pound of flesh
a piece of soul it is a gift, we do not need it you can have it
we cannot stand to feel your pain.

Cross equator, cross a desert
a gentle wind plays through the grass that sighs through miles of gold savanna.
Twenty miles west of Gabiro the grass grows tall like your eldest daughter
except in years of drought it doesn't
and there's been three longs years of drought.
But the women in their huts don't think of drought at times like this
as they are crouched beside their beds
mothers' hands across the mouths of babes
don't make a sound my lovely child.
But of course what does it matter, they will know that we are here
and the women say their prayers
they pray
they pull their children tight as they listen to the footsteps
coming closer coming closer
and their prayers are not for salvation
but only that the darkness takes the children first.

And many miles away where the forest meets the grassland
a dozen heads rise up in tandem
twelve sets of ears turn to the east.
A herd of tiny bushbuck catch the muffled sound of gunfire
muscles quiver in their necks, they wait, they listen
then go back about their grazing
as the wind plays through the miles of gold savanna
and silence falls across the warm Rwandan plains.

Children, children, do not weep
Lay your troubles at my feet
Take my breast and settle darling
I would trade my fondest dreams
There now did I see a smile?

And in a veldt beneath a tree a woman grunts
her breathing shallow short and quick like hungry jackals
sweat pools in the dirt beneath her
rocking moaning rush of blood a child slips fresh into the world.

Listen women, gather round.
Don't you know that I still see you, feel your breath move through my body,
sense the quickening of your veteran disquiet?
In my sleep I feel the crush of all the dreams that slipped away beneath the steady beat of time
as you sought to bide your time.
When I look into the faces of my son and of my daughter
I see the hopes of all your children
they are one and the same.

And can you see me now my friends standing here on the precipice of time?
Do you see the closing arc?
Can you hear me raise me voice in hot dissent or righteous anger, open laughter, celebration?
Do you see me turn away from All they worship, say no thank you I choose not to,
stand abreast with kings and beggars, slip this ring from off my finger, walk alone into the night?
Do you see me drinking deeply from this cup of freedom always just outside your reach?

I see you smile for me and I wonder where you find your strength, considering.
Not in fist or gold or clever intellect or down the barrel of a gun
or whatever weary cliché.
You say this wryly then you laugh and I see time hasn't robbed you of your humor.

Come beautiful women, come and shuffle off the years
and the coats of many lifetimes lived in terror want and grief
come and drink this cup of freedom
bring your children, bring your men, there's enough for all to savor
for the heart is like a marvel, multiplies when split asunder
doesn't die when ripped asunder but regenerates afresh
unfurls in endless ribbons like the wind across the plains
like the miles of silver ocean
and returns to you the dreams that you once whispered in the night.
Come call back your lonely sentries
oh you queens of errant fortune
don't you see
don't you see
that we are free.

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  1. This my friend is an anthem. You have strength and beauty in your soul. That is why I do not worry about you. We see the same moon. x

  2. Lovely post, you are such a talented writer. Also love the new look blog.


  3. Beautiful words. I think I need to sit and read it again.

  4. Thank you my friends. I think I'm catching my breath again.

  5. Like your new look! also, lovely post. Glad you're catching your breath!

  6. Phenomenal. Love your new look too.

  7. That was absolutely lovely! And I love the new outfit on your blog!

  8. Gorgeous writing, I was lost in the moment. You've got your groove back! Yay!

    The new look is sharp. Have you returned to your homeland having honoured Uluru enough?

  9. @ Maxabella - thank you for the compliment. And I imagine I'll travel back and forth. Would that be art imitating life? :-)

    @ Eva & Kirrily & Rhonda - thank you xx

  10. Onwards upwards, K. Onwards upwards.xxxx

  11. wow - i wanted that to go on an are a very talented writer...more please!

    love the new look...where is that pic taken?

  12. @ Gill - thanks so much xx the pic is of my beloved Kansas wheat

    @ B - soldiering on, :)

  13. Beautiful, just absolutely beautiful.

  14. Wow. Just... wow. When I think you couldn't possibly... you do.

  15. I've read many poems in my time and that was up there with the best of them.

  16. Beautiful - your poem and you. Thank you for posting something so sincere, sensitive, tender, and in such a talented way. Your spirit thrives. That is evident!

  17. I love the website, go day to see him ever again post. Congratulations and published as yet.
    How about the article, is that other, very interesting.

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  19. Thank you all. I had a moments pause before hitting publish, wondering if this was too dark. But these women kept whispering their stories to me so I thought I'd best tell them.

    @ Documentary, thanks for your comment. I deleted the second comment because it was just advertising and exceptionally long.

  20. Just....unbelievable. Unbelievably beautiful. I knew there was a reason I connected to you and your blog so instantly.

    I'll be sending a Top Marks Award your way ASAP.

  21. what a great way to start on someone's blog!

    And I love your header, I tried the steps from AMB yesterday using Picasa but when I checked it was HUGE, a few hours later I had a teeny one, wonky one, took up the whole page one, and finally went back to none! I will persist!

  22. Wow. I am speechless and I hear and know things in what you say. Priceless writing. I must show this to The GOFA. Wow.

  23. Very powerful writing.

    Love the new blog look! Snazzy!

  24. Words that beautiful can only come from a beautiful soul. Thank you!

  25. Beautiful. I feel so inadequate saying that, but here I am struggling on how to tell you just how great that was. Women are the shit, man.

  26. Wow, thank you all, am touched by your comments. xx

  27. Amazing...absolutely and simply...amazing.

  28. Oh my. You are a story teller. Just lovely.

  29. wow, what beautiful writing. I hope you don't mind but I linked this up on a post, hoping others who visit mine will come visit yours.. your words touched me so much,

  30. beautiful!
    You inspire me to learn and practice better writing.

  31. Thank you, xx

    @ Christina, I saw your post yesterday as I noticed some readers hopping over from your site. Thanks for the link! I don't mind at all, I'm very flattered.

  32. Wow, that was awesome. I nearly skipped it as I am not into epic poems, but one piece caught my eye and I went back and read it, and read it again. That is so... awesome.

    Love the new blog look too.


  33. Hanging out to hear from you soon. Be strong.

  34. Thanks AV, love you xx

    @ Badger, welcome home, I've been quietly lurking.

  35. I smell a manifesto here. The lynchpin:
    "In my sleep I feel the crush of all the dreams that slipped away beneath the steady beat of time
    as you sought to bide your time."
    You're amazing.

    P.S. The new look rocks from on high. Love it. xoxo

  36. it does read like an anthem, and also like a legend. women are defining the world anew. there's a wave rising. you are part of the crest.

  37. @ Becky and Ed, thank you. Love and love. :-)

  38. Hey there, lady, I'm giving you the Blogger Rock Star Award tomorrow (Tuesday) on my blog!!!

  39. Going back through my comments and catching up on a few past visitors.

    Very well done piece. Nicely written and expressive. Nice to come across gems like this when you're just doing some blog hopping and not expecting it. You should put that talent to work.

  40. This is my first time to visit your blog and I actually like it. I have a knack in searching for blogs related to Tummy Tankz.

  41. Beautiful, Kristin.. I only read this through the blog carnival - I'm glad I did. I'm impressed.
    take care !!

  42. Beautiful piece of writing x

  43. The line "their prayers are not for salvation
    but only that the darkness takes the children first" brought me to tears.


  44. Loving your new blog look! I'm tempted to sing "I am woman, hear me roar"

  45. we don't see until we are free, and we aren't free until we see.
    it is indeed an anthem, a desperate cry for what we all want and have.
    i felt a drumbeat throughout this.

  46. I love this. I remember you reading this out and I don't think I took a breathe until you finished. xx

  47. Goosebumps. I hope you publish a fabulous book with your stories someday. You are amazing.


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