Tuesday, August 21, 2012

The (barely) bearable unlightness

Every year when election season rolls around and the rhetoric kicks up I am reminded how out of step I am with my fellow countrymen, or at least a large percentage of them. I listen and can't shake the sense that I am an alien in this country (on this planet). I keep reading the news stories and then wishing I hadn't. But right now I need the distraction.

Today has been a difficult day. Yesterday was a difficult day.The spiral of anxiety, the fear that things will get worse before they get better. Some days I feel like I can see the light at the other end of the tunnel. Some days I wonder if the tunnel has an end.

I feel like I'm sitting at a lonely bus stop far from anywhere and the bus is late. It should have been here long ago. Is that it on the horizon? No. What if it doesn't come? I'm sure it will come. Will it?

I thought about writing about what has brought on the anxiety, then decided against it. I thought about writing about the latest political bru-ha-ha. Akin and the whole "legitimate" rape debate. That there is a sliding scale of rape. That a vagina has the moral capacity to discern good-people sperm from bad-people sperm, and reject the latter. But I decided against that too.

I decided I preferred levity and composed a list of twelve amazing things your vagina can do (that I bet you didn't even know about!). That was more fun. But I didn't publish that, either, as I discovered someone else did virtually the same thing. Yesterday.

In the end I got distracted by pretty pictures of soap. 

Seriously, LOOK at these soaps:












I have a serious soap fetish. I love love love handmade soaps. To me they represent beauty and goodness and home in a way that makes no logical sense. I once had a dream that I bought some beautiful soaps and I was ecstatic, and then I woke up and felt so dejected that it was all just a dream.

I'm not sure what this says about my psyche. 

The soaps above come from Inner Earth Soaps. I saw them on their Facebook page. I read that the business is just one woman, making these soaps from scratch in her kitchen. I have no idea who she is but I think you should go like her page, if only because she fills the world with something beautiful. If we all filled the world with something (anything) beautiful, what a place it would be.

If I lived in Australia I would go buy them now and they would make everything better.

Today someone, a reader, sent me a beautiful message. She said just the right things, at a time when I was trying not to drown. Thank you.

Thank you.






27 comments:

  1. I, too, love soap. PM me your addy, I have some for you. :)

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    1. Oh you TEASE. You do not need to send me anything! But I love you. x

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  2. Do you know I composed a blog post about soap in my mind this morning. Same page baby - same page :)

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    1. Oh how funny, Kelly! And I'm guessing then that neither of us were working on our proposals? x

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  3. I love reading stories of the beauty and the warmth of social media.The good it can do.Get so tired of hearing of its neagatives.
    I am so happy that at the time you needed it the most a reader sent you as message that helped you when you felt you were drowning.
    Bless that reader and social media for being a lifeboat.
    Isnt it wonderful how we can all be right there for eachother,day or night,when needed,even though we may be miles apart.
    Bug hugs hon.xx

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    1. I think social media is just a reflection of the world at large, there is both good and not-so-good. But the good I have encountered has far outweighed the bad. There are a lot of really good souls who connect this way (and you're one of them). x

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  4. I thought it was fudge. Looks good enough to eat. I think I'm going to call my mom and cuss at her so she will want to wash my mouth out with that soap.
    Aside from that, I tried to email you something but got a reject, so shoot me a note so I can forward to you what I thought you'd like to read.
    Hugs to you...

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    1. It does look edible, doesn't it?! And yummy edible.

      Just em'd you. x

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  5. You should check out the amazing stuff Paula Urquart of Rustic Rootz does! DIVINE soaps and FIZZY BATH CUPCAKES!!! So beautiful and she's located in Canada so a little closer to home. She's so lovely, I hope her creations bring a little beauty and light to your world. https://www.facebook.com/RusticRootzEcoRawOrganicBodycare

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    1. Oh man, those are gorgeous! I read she does wedding favors. What a cool idea. I want to give out adorable little gourmet soaps to everyone at my next wedding (you know, when I'm in the nursing home)!

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  6. Sending healing sunshine and a calming warm breeze your way!

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  7. I love these soaps - they look good enough to eat! Sending you love and wishes that soap can wash all the bad stuff away and renew our souls. xxx

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    1. That would be lovely if it could wash it all away. x

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  8. Soap? I thought they were some kind of sticky cake... ;-)

    Big hugs.

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    1. I know, I think that's why they appeal so much! x

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  9. Aiken is a douchebag, and I read that Romney is distancing himself from him, I would say run away fast would be a better idea. I have no idea how your politics works, but it s crazy indeed.

    The soaps are lovely and I will go and find them on facebook and say you sent me.

    I hope you are soon back on top of the world, I just wish there was some small thing I could do for you, like make all the shit go away.

    Hugs from Perth xxxx

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    1. You bring a little ray of light to my life every time you come by and comment. x

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  10. I know that tunnel and often feel like I'm traveling..or stuck in it myself. I've begun stockpiling quotes on my phone which are helping get me through.

    Your quotes are soaps and what beautiful soaps they are! I think of you often and hope you know even in the most dark and alone moments that you make this world do incredibly brighter and better to live in and your words help so many. You're loved by many friend

    xoxo

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    1. Wow, what an incredibly kind thing to say. Thank you. I'm sorry you are in that same tunnel. Though will all of us there, it's a less lonely place. :)

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  11. I hope this darkness ends soon for you. And those soaps are so awesome I just want to eat them (at first I thought the 2nd pic was fudge). Thinking of you and wish I could help. Stay strong
    xxx

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    1. The look delicious, don't they? Thanks hon. x

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  12. Hand made soaps make happy. Even when I'm waiting for a bus. Which is very, very late.

    I wonder if it's the same bus?

    This would be so much easier if you just lived next door....

    Big hugs...

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    1. Maybe we should start a commune for single mothers. We could sell soap...

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  13. When there is so much tension and chaos and debate in the air, sometimes the lightness of beautiful soap is all we need to cut through it. It totally worked for me when I read your post! But I do hear you about your fear and anxiety. I wish so much that will end, like immediately. May you find pockets of peace and beauty along the way. Thinking of you. xxx

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  14. Making something beautiful is always worthwhile. Here's to soap.

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